Oh god I got addicted to Tomodachi Life. Yeah, I got Tomodachi Life for my birthday 3 days ago and I've been living it up and having so much fun with my yuri island, now featuring Sephiroth! I got the whole setup too, I got my own stylus and have been watching a ton of tutorials on how to make good looking mii's and I think i've improved them a lot. I love how everyones mii's all look so different from each other, that Um Jammer Lammy pic on twitter is so charming, I hope online sharing is never added. In a unexpected way I really did pick up a third varient of the pen, the plastic stylus. Hope I'm not scratching my screen, It feels a little coarse now.

Anyways, if I'm able to beat my Tomodachi Life addiction I have a video coming out within two weeks. It was a real spur of the moment idea that I thought was really cool, and I think it's interesting to myself at least so I hope it provides some entertainment to others. I started filming on the 23rd and I should be done with that by the 29th and all that's left would be editing. It's a small and cute little video with very minimal scripting and a short length, it's definately going onto my 2nd channel, AzurePS2, so I'll add a link to it on my main website landing page.

Speaking of my other channel, oh god people have seen that Gynoid video! Ah! No! I hate it! I feel so embarrassed by that video now, I mean I'm glad it's out there officially but man it's terrible! Why did I even leave in the videoless part? I should've just cut out that part, it's not like I was saying anything interesting anyways. Ah but that aside, I personally believe that I am a single mile ahead of my old writing and am happy with my (very slightly) better articulation skills. Don't get me wrong though, I am about 150 million kilometers away from being "good" so I have the length of the sun to travel before I'm satisfied. Or maybe I'll never be satisfied? We'll see.

I unfortunately operate of pure ADHD bursts of energy so I'm really inconsistant when it comes to working on my hobbies, in this case video making. Some days I have worked for 8+ hours on the Kannazuki no Miko video and others I just work like 10 minutes and write one note down. But over these nearly 5 months I have accquired enough research for that KNM video to start the writing process, It's a huge video and I got a lot of different things I want to say with it so it'll easily be the most difficult thing I've ever done acedemically. But I love that video. If you don't know what Kannazuki no Miko is, in short it's what I would call the first yuri anime for a "shonen" audience, and I believe it alongside the other yuri anime from 2004, caused the 2nd big wave of yuri media. The show is very... hah, I like it but I have complex feelings on it. It's a difficult show to put as much of an emphasis on too even though I believe it's an important work in the yuri sphere, because it handles sexual assualt in pretty bad way. It's interesting and also mostly forgotten from a direct sense as the Kannazuki no Miko pose is still an iconic part of the yuri community, especially in the west.

Other than that video, the remastered Gynoid video has made no progress. So my whole idea for that being my first comeback video is shoved out of line with the KNM video being first... Right? Well I have been working on another video for the entirety of April, that video being the Color of Kanon. This is where I think I really improved my writing a bit, rewriting the script over 3 times, likely a 4th final pass and finally onto the editing. It was meant to be a shorter video but so far on just research and writing alone it's taken 12 hours, I'll keep timing it during the remaining bits to see overall how long it takes for a roughly ~15 minute video. This video was supposed to be a quick 2nd channel video but I kinda got carried away and broadened the scope a tiny bit and here we are, along with me really taking the time to learn script writing as well, which was longer than the research. I have many doubts with this video, even now, the reason being that I can talk about history and facts more easily than I can talk about my feelings and how color choices directly effect my enjoyment of something. It's not something I've done, and it's something that is a bit of a weird topic to begin with, but damnit I trust the me that felt REALLY strongly about this while playing, even if the current me is doubtful.

I don't know if this sounds defeatist or not but what is really driving me forward is a fear of disrespecting the creators of the work and fans of it. It's weird because I'm literally praising the work all video but, I don't want to disapoint people with my dumb little video. I really hope that people could see the passion I have about the stuff I talk about, because I truly am passionate about this stuff but it's really difficult for me to communicate that, not just in writing but in general. But I have listened to a lot of creators from all mediums and walks of lifes talk about feeling that same way so, it comforts me to know that hey, we're all just trying to connect with others out here. So it's that belief that people will be able to see past all my poor writing, simple editing, and awkward as shit voice, and see someone who just wants to talk about this stuff with others.

Wtf, why did that turn into a vent post? I just wanted to talk a bit about Tomodachi Life... Anyways Hitori and Kita got married and want to have a baby.

So that's it. My plan is for 2nd channel video to be out within two weeks and for both the Color of Kanon video and Kannazuki no Miko video to be out by the end of May. I'm hopeful that I can accomplish this, which I frankly shouldn't be, since that's essentially 3 videos in a month but either way, if I don't have Kannazuki video done by the end of May then I'll still upload the Kanon video on the last day of May as a single. With this post ending let me do the honor of sharing with those who have never seen this clip with the actual funniest thing I've seen all year. RZA unironically creates a terrible beat for a Guitar Center promo